#idk i'm just thinkin thoughts.

[nero-neptune]

still watching manhunt. there's something about seeing black people in shows or movies set in the 1800s. there's this mix of sadness and anger i always feel bc the fucking unfairness makes me sick. and if it's something set the south? then i know that members of my family i'll never know would've experienced that. it would've been All they ever knew.

i always say "i'd hate to live back then" (bc um! i would!!), but i have to remember that they still lived. they had lives, despite the shit they had to endure. at the end of the day, the very fact that i'm alive means that plenty of my black ancestors existed and lived their lives while black in america (the american south, at that). through slavery, emancipation, segregation, integration, and on and on. so idk. i'm sure there were many different things in their lives that made their lives worth living. if nothing else, it was a life. and i doubt they saw their lives as some endless hopeless tribulation.

anyway, manhunt's a good show. got me pondering shit lol.

[jackawful]

I think as much as free housing for everyone is a good goal, we gotta also fight for the right to not live in a house if you don't want to? Like I am aware that for the vast majority of homeless folks rn it's a non-choice or half-choice under the current system but like. Idk like even if the state provides everyone with an apartment or tiny home, even if most people would take that deal in a heartbeat, it's not okay for the state to force someone into housing they don't want. It's not okay for the state to tow someone's camper van even if they give them an apartment in exchange. I should have the right to travel for months on end and camp anywhere suitable that isn't being used. Freedom of movement and freedom to occupy spaces is really important actually.

[robo-bozo7125]

why am i honest to god thinking about writing tspud fanfiction despite not being active in the fandom for several months

[leapinarmadillo]

ohhhh. i forgot that people used to say michael was getting surgeries in order to look like diana ross. ugh. i don't think there's anything to that but............ugh.

[dogboy-danielcain]

totally open to correction on this but sometimes i think people try too hard to give shakespeare credit for any feminism that incidentally happens to occur in his work.

[paleontaxi]

//what if i got silly and wrote elias voit from criminal minds

[fleetsonourgecentral]

I did a lot of research for my Scourge fics and let me tell you: Scourge and sonic are more alike than not. And scourge has good qualities that sonic doesnt have.

Honestly the interesting thing about writing Scourge and Sonic is their similarities, and seeing how those similarities differ. Like.... the thing about them is stc!Sonic and Scourge are both jackasses, which makes them have very similar attitudes to write, so finding the more subtle ways they differ is a lot of fun to me. I once got a comment on a fic of mine saying they're both snarky jackasses, but Scourge is notably less concerned with the "greater good" while Sonic obviously cares deeply about his friends and the world he's trying to save, which I think is a very good description, and one I strive to try and portray in my fics (although how much I succeed I could not tell you, I am not a reliable judge of my own writing lol). Their differences, to me, aren't as pronounced as Scourge's differences to, say, Archie Sonic, (although he certainly shares his similarities with them too), but that's what makes finding the differences between them and figuring out how to write those differences so fun

[tiredassmage]

🖊 for Tyr 👀👀 maybe early Intelligence days thoughts?

Experienced a Thought I've been delaying acknowledging for like a month now??? Probably??? Aaauhhhh that spawned a potential emotion-busting revelation, so I MEANT to talk about this in like, a constructed manner, but then I busted out a fic musing about the latest ping pong ball of a thought to go flying across the room like that scene from the first Men In Black, so uhhhh Merry Crisis with me?!

I'm still rotating this in my head wondering if I really need to add another layer of complexity to Tyr's already botched life, but also: it's real damn good and it hurts me, so, naturally, I'm going to release that upon the world now, too. xD

Anyway. Vague context if you want it: I posted this trying not to chew on this like a stick and go absolutely insane about it, bUT it only encouraged me, so now we have this instead.

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DECKARD, TYR V.

Keeper stilled as his eyes landed at the top of the next file, the steady hum of air circulators and databanks blending into a yet more quiet background noise. Carding through potential recruits was a lengthy process, even with the rigid requirements of the Intelligence Academy.

Perhaps his wife was right, he considered idly. The long days and dwindling nights had long characterized his career with Intelligence. Surely it was, on some level, partially responsible for a few of the permanent lines dug in across his features and the graying, receding hair. He still hadn’t pinned whether work at the head of Operations division outpaced the weight of being in the field.

Such idle musings would do little to cull the ever-growing list of his responsibilities.

He turned away from the face of the chrono again with a sniff. Briefly, he pinched the bridge of his nose and closed aching eyes. He’d call it soon, but he’d opened this last report, so there was little sense it putting it off further. Academy leadership had urged him to take particular interest in this potential officer.

A frown set a bit further across thinned lips as he read over the name again.

Deckard.

High marks in weapons proficiency, infiltration, negotiation… High marks relatively across the board. Impressive. Very impressive for such a young recruit.

For the moment, he skipped the file attachments. Data first. Early twenties. Successful shadow and support on a wet-foot operation local on Dromund Kaas. Adaptable in the field. Good at taking orders.

Limited connections with family - that would make operations easier long-term.

Deckard. Fairly ranked officer in the Imperial Navy. Marriage to a testy, if moderatly influential Sith Lord some three decades back or so. He remembered the one rather well, had exchanged some mild pleasantries over the engagement… Hot headed, their daughter. She'd be about the age to send to Korriban now, he reckoned, if she hadn't been already.

The son, it seemed, had managed to dodge that ill temperament thus far.

Deckard, Tyr V. Reportedly orphaned by fleet action and charitably raised by the then-Commander Deckard - the officer had been related to the boy’s parents and had taken him rather than pass him off to an impassionate system.

That same piece of action had earned the patriarch a promotion to Captain following, if memory served him correctly.

Keeper drew a hand across his chin. The boy’s discipline and piloting training would have made him a just fit for the Navy to keep, but Academy recruitment had singled him out during early martial skills training.

His fingers hovered - hesitated - over the attached shots from Academy entrance.

Outplayed, or simply mocked by whatever forces were or were not at work in this wretched galaxy, Keeper mused with a scowl threatening his lips. A Watcher or three were always fond of telling him it’d make those lines around his eyes more permanent - a sentiment the wife often echoed.

That was the bloody thing about Ciphers - they were damn difficult to truly eliminate. Silent fingerprints left across the galaxy despite retirement or reassignment or even gross and utter failure.

Keeper closed the file and dimmed the lights in his office before he leaned back in his chair and released a long, bone-deep sigh slowly, hands steepling to touch fingertips to his forehead.

He was all but the top of his class - strong potential to be an absolute asset to Operations. An opportunity that couldn’t be passed up in a right mind.

Particularly with whispers that the military was still probing for weaknesses along Republic lines, they could ill-afford to be short-staffed. The… competitive nature of their Empire always bred opportunity. The grass was tall and there were vipers aplenty.

Duty seemed to remove the choice in the matter.

He opened his eyes and leaned forward. They had a number of sensitive operations that would need delicate, well-trained hands coming up. He’d examine this latest grouping of operatives personally, he decided.

That would show him painfully well just how much a son would manage to follow a father. Even as well-removed from a Cipher’s imprint as had been affordable by the circumstances.

He picked up the datapad once more, finished off the approval for the select few that would be moving forward to finalize their training and transition into active service. Then he stood and prepared to head home, but not before lingering a few moments longer over that last file.

He should have sent the boy much farther than Dromund Kaas.

A moot point and an ill-advised longing now, he reasoned as a finger brushed the edges of the screen. Whether or not it would’ve saved the boy from Intelligence, they’d never know now.

At the absolute least, he’d avoid mentioning this to the wife. For now. Their illustrious Emperor, even in sleep, knew she worried plenty enough as it was.

[bravevolunteer]

and when i npc / oc-ify jeremy fitzgerald what then huh

[ace-of-clubs-and-diamonds]

We need more goth final girls.

[corferox]

thinkin about.... how link has historically been left handed in the series, and how left handed swordsmen are typically seen as having a slight advantage over their opponents........ and how botw link is NOT left handed ( for some reason ) but but but buuuuut REVALI is.

[sapsolais]

i love nimona

[imwritesometimes]

every day I want to cover the last tattoo I got more & more cause God forbid someone think I got it cause of a certain fandom..................

[todayisafridaynight]

for immersion(TM) purposes i've only played the yakuza games with english dubs as an option in japanese, but ichi's english va is so cute and was almost enough for me to make the change on my first playthrough. couldn't do it in the end though smth about it just doesn't click with me. they're so super talented though and i always frown when i see like ... actual hate ?? it's so strange to me.

i get not wanting to consume foreign media with english dubbing, especially in yakuza when they still keep honorifics (i know some people think it's odd hearing someone in english say terms like 'arakawa-san', though i can't say 'mr. arakawa' sounds much better imo)

but im glad you don't think it's bad ! that's the least i can ask for tbh :)

[blujayonthewing]

adhd adventuring researching spirits for nerd reasons, finding that a number of closely related anise-based spirits are traditional to the mediterranean and middle east; thinkin about how in tes lore moonsugar is a regular part of the traditional khajiiti diet but apparently skooma was invented by dunmer and combines a spirit distilled from moonsugar with nightshade, which is a poison; thinkin about how the thing that sets absinthe apart and gives it its (false) reputation as psychoactive is the addition of wormwood, which is a poison

[kindacreepy-kindaugly]

...then I remember all the things I'm scared of again